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What do you do when you are fearful of something you want and need to move forward in?
I recently joined a group called The Start Experiment with Jon Acuff. It has been a group with challenges to confront your fears and push through them. Or as Jon says, “Punch fear in the face.” But as I have been doing this, I haven’t really seen any breakthroughs. My same fears have been holding me back in the same ways. And it isn’t without the desire to move through them…its more the fear of success. Or more specifically…
What if I succeed and it doesn’t look or feel like I thought it would?
What if I put all the work into it and it flops?
Is it worth it to still pursue it even if there is potential for it to fail? I don’t want to never try and then always wonder what if? I know that is so cliché, but have you ever felt that way? I feel like the fear in front of me keeping me from moving forward and behind me that makes me want to move forward are both hedging me into this paralyzed state. And I feel overwhelmed and sad and just in a funk. And then I think…why do I feel like this? And when I start thinking about the logic behind my thoughts and the reality…those big mountain scary thoughts slowly shrink. They fluctuate for sure. Some days I feel excited and others I feel timid.
So then, I was reminded of a lecture where the man talked about fear…he said if there is something you are afraid of and you feel like the door is open as far as the Lord is concerned, then you have to do something that confronts that fear. Do something that you’re scared of to really step into the face of that fear and push past it. Scared of raising money for your mission? Call someone and tell them about your mission and ask for financial support. That’s what he meant. Do something that counters that fear…be brave and courageous and move through it.
So this week, I went ahead and ordered a sample of one of the products I am going to be having in the Happy Paper Company shop. It scares me to move forward with that venture, but I know that if I really want to do it, I have to take steps – even if they are scary steps – to move through that fear. I have to press into the Lord and find His strength in order to overcome what I am afraid of. I can’t let that fear decide what I am going to do. If I do that, I will never do anything.