Yesterday, I wrote a post about slowing down. The desire for more and less at the same time. And then literally ALL DAY yesterday, I saw post after post after link after link for the same thing: slowing down. And it caught my eye of course, but it started to make me wonder if God was trying to tell me something. And as the day wore on and the theme kept being, well, a theme…I knew God was saying something to me.
I mean, yes, I know that He is telling me or showing me the value of slowing down. He is validating that desire in my heart. But I felt like all those posts were showing me He saw me. He knew. But what I was confused about was what He was asking me to do. Was He asking me to do anything? Was He calling me to action or simply showing me that a value in the day to day is to take it slow?
I will admit, I often feel pressure to continue blogging, designing, and business-ing because the extra income reeeeeally helps. Its not imperative, but it helps in those oops moments and on weeks that things are tight. I often take responsibility for this because my husband just can’t work more [he already works 50+ hours weekly along with a one hour each way commute] so the yoke is on me to provide any extra income. Yes, I know that the yoke isn’t really on me, but it feels that way. Especially when, as a stay-at-home-mom, I feel like my time during the day can be useful to help bring in more income.
But sometimes, my mind wanders to what if I didn’t do anything? What if I stopped blogging-tweeting-designing-earning-striving-trying? I’m never going to stop blogging or Tweeting. I’ll tell you one thing, I would lose my way of connecting with some amazing women across the country…but what I mean is what if I just did it for what God wanted to pour into me and not for anything else? No more trying. No more searching. Just plain friendships and blog posts about being a mom and wife and whatever else.
I don’t think quitting everything is what God is calling me to, but when I think about what that would look like, you know what thought comes to mind? Rest. Peace. No more deadlines.
I also feel like the Lord has given me my business, my blog, my wonderful community online…and I want to use it for Him. I want to bless Him with it. So my first step in all of this is to start getting up early again and spending time with the Lord before I do anything. Before emails, before checking likes on Instagram, before responding to Twitter mentions. I used to do this, and then the boy started waking up in the middle of the night again and I got out of habit.
Gosh that sounds sad, doesn’t it?
I got out of habit in spending time with my friend, Jesus. I want to get back into my morning coffee dates with Him.
I compiled a list of all the posts I came across yesterday on slowing down here for you to read. I know you will find rest in them and validation if you, too, are longing for slow in your life.
dreaming big + simple obedience // the pint sized mama
why you don’t have to hurry today // (in)courage << super encouraging & my favorite
how to make time slow down // sarah markley
and then Jesus Calling:
Come away with Me for a while. The world, with its nonstop demands, can be put on hold. Most people put Me on hold, rationalizing that someday they will find time to focus on Me. But the longer people push Me into the background of their lives, the harder it is for them to find Me.
You live among people who glorify business; they have made time a tyrant that controls their lives. Even those who know Me as Savior tend to march to the tempo of the world. They have bought into the illusion that more is always better: more meetings, more programs, more activity.
I have called you to follow Me on a solitary path, making time alone with Me your highest priority and deepest Joy. It is a pathway largely unappreciated and often despised. However, you have chosen the better thing, which will never be taken away from you. Moreover, as you walk close to Me, I can bless others through you.