Not Lacking

I have to admit, I have been a rollercoaster of emotion lately. If you are a close friend or family member of mine or follow on Twitter, I’m sure you’ve noticed the recent increase in stressed out posts. I had a royal meltdown the other day over something — something worth being concerned about — but definitely not sob-your-eyes-out-and-hyperventilate worthy. I expressed anxiety today to my husband over all the things still to do before we move. All the things that are going to require money :: deposits, registrations, payments, etc. 
In each of these stressful moments, I finally realize after a good long amount of time of stressing and fretting that I am missing something. I feel the Lord tugging at me,

When are you going to give it to Me?

And then I instantly feel like …duh…

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That’s not to say that the issue or concern goes away, but the irrational trying to control it and figure everything out feeling subsides. I know what I have to do and what I am responsible for — my electricity here isn’t going to cancel itself and more stuff like that — but letting it stress me out when every other detail of this move has felt confirmed and orchestrated by the Lord, why should I worry now? My mom says its the nesting instinct of mommies — that I am feeling like the protective how-am-I-going-to-provide-for-my-baby instinct that is probably causing the overactive emotions…which I think is true to a point.
But I also have let my faith slide a little, let myself take the control back {or the illusion of control}, and stopped relying on my Father for everything.
Those who seek the LORD shall not lack any good thing.
Do I believe it??
He has promised to provide for me, care for me, listen to me, catch my tears, hold me, pursue me, CHASE me, never leave me, provide for me, protect me, love me…love me….love me…
This week, I have kind of felt like a mouse in an agitating washing machine — trying to find a place to grasp, catch a breath — but nothing around me felt in control, everything was confusing and out of sorts…that was the reality I was creating for myself. haha — I was trying to find my footing when all I needed to do was cry out to Jesus.
Have you ever had an “ah-ha!” moment like that? Where all there is to do is simply pray…and that was all you really needed to do in the first place? Oh, I feel so stupid and yet so relieved when I realize this! Like the Lord is listening to me ramble on and on and finally grabs my hand and says, “Take a breath, girl, I got this.”
Well, I am grasping on to Psalm 34:10 and praying God’s perfect peace falls upon my heart.
I will rest in His promises today. :)
♥erin