What is it about writing?

This week, I had an encounter with content stealing that left me feeling like I wanted to quit the internet. I have dramatic moments like this occasionally, trying to convince myself to just break up with my blog and move on. But every time I feel this way, I just can’t bring myself to actually do it. The community, the connection with other people, it just feels like too much of a loss.

But you can stay on social media like Instagram, Twitter, and Facebook, you might say. Yes, this is true…but when it comes down to it, I just can’t stop writing. I am not an amazing writer, in my own opinion, but something in me needs to have this space to write and send my word out into space. I need to be able to say all the words and all the sentences.

I don’t know what it is about writing. I mean, I don’t even say anything particularly philosophical or moving. I don’t have a book or millions of followers. I could chant, “I WRITE FOR ME!” but that wouldn’t be true either.

What is it about writing? Specifically, what is it about writing publicly? Is it therapeutic? Is it narcissistic? I guess I do have dreams of one day writing books…but is that why I love blogging? Writing?

Sometimes I wonder if maybe writing is like throwing out a little morsel in hopes that someone will comment that they can relate. Or, if I am being truly honest, maybe it is a bit narcissistic in that we are looking for someone to be interested in us. Find value in us. Maybe we are trying, in a vulnerable and real way, to stand up and ask if someone will notice us.

Because if there is one thing I know about our humanity is that we long to be seen. We long for someone to look at us long enough to notice and see what the glancers and busy-bodies don’t see in their rush. Maybe we’re hoping for more than a comment. Maybe we long for a deeper connection that shows us that people find value not only in our writing or the pretty online spaces we create, but in the person who is connected to the fingers typing out the words.

Maybe we’re longing for more than what our culture has to offer. More than skin and big talk and possessions and sex and all the things. More than fizzled connections and empty words and manipulating and the never ending pursuit of the thing that we will be bored with 10 minutes later. Maybe writing and blogging and Instagramming are just small grasps at the desire to connect with the world in a meaningful and refreshing way.

Maybe?

Comments

    • Erin Lauray says

      I think that occasionally, its good to think about why we’re writing. It can awaken the passion that got us started. :) Thanks for stopping by Kate! :)

  1. says

    Erin,
    I loved what you wrote and found you through a tweet from Brian Gardner. I started my garden blog in 2009 to share my love of gardening and photography. You are so right, if feels so good when you connect with someone.

    Interesting it was the post I wrote about my dog passing away that touched just a few readers who were grieving about their own loss of a pet. We connected and comforted each other in a very public way – on the blog. So I write because it fulfills me. I connect when I let my guard down and share, just being myself.

    • Erin Lauray says

      Isn’t that amazing?! I believe people are just waiting for someone to break the ice and be real. Thanks for being one of those brave people!

  2. says

    Erin, you’ve brilliantly expressed everything that I’ve been thinking over the last year. And quite honestly, it’s the underlying sentiments that caused me to start Unfiltered when I did.

    For me, it all goes back to the idea that we seek significance. I know I do, and it’s one of the primary reasons that I choose to write. Or did.

    Thanks for being bold in your decisions, and being bold in carrying forward on what YOU want to do, rather than what you think the world wants you to do.

    • Erin Lauray says

      Thank you, Brian. I too feel that we all seek significance. Maybe that is the reason I am pursuing the career of therapist…to give others a voice and to tell their story. To feel valued. To be seen. Thanks for the compliments, and thank YOU for being an inspiration to me to be real online. :)